I am in a daze and I continue to be dumbfounded till this very day. You see early this month, I was certified to teach (1) TOEFL (Test of English as a Foreign Language) and (2) Business English concurrently. Four days later, while I was still in the brink of accepting these great news; I was astonished to see my name included in the (3) list of the Good Tutor Awards for the first quarter of this year. And I can't help but to whisper a sincere "thank you" to our good Lord.
On hindsight, I questioned Him if I truly deserved these because there were a few occasions when my enthusiasm declined especially after an encounter with a difficult student. On rare instances, I would hear myself whine to my parents about some trivial matters relating to my job as an ESL (English as a second language) tutor. Yet I am reminded in the book of Psalm 75: 6-7 that promotion comes from God and not from men. I assumed He had seen how hard I worked for these and has exalted me though I am still in disbelief.
I have a secret. I dread the technicalities of the English grammar, more so explaining it in detail. I can speak English like my first language and I know when a sentence is correct or incorrect. However, I painstakingly review because I want to excel in what I love doing. I have to prepare myself for the advance students who know the grammar rules by heart. For instance, I have to clearly explain how a reflexive pronoun is used or make the student understand the difference between an active from a passive voice.
The month of May is still unfolding and I continue to be in awe for all these blessings. On a reflective note, I have learned to become more:
1. Grateful that I am able to work from home despite my limited mobility;
2. Patient in dealing with different personalities and extend it outside my job and
3. Trusting in His perfect will for me.